How can I observe, explain and see...

I have no idea how to explain things even to myself. I do not expect any one to read this I really don't. However, I really have some new feelings coming up and all around me, all over me, inside and out. Sometimes the things that seem so evil are the things that make a person so sweet, so sane. I know I need you forever and always, maybe I am supposed to love God more, my family more, my mother more, but I love you. I needed some support, justice knows (figuratively speaking) that I should find it only in myself. It's all good, I swear I don't need anyone but myself. All I should need is myself, however you take over me majorly and I know I need you more than ever. Circumstances has me always saying the same things over and over again, and really now: I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do. I am sick of speaking about myself (in journalism) as a second person, from another standpoint so that blog is done. Priceless yes, metaphors are but realistic we must be. Married to Hip Hop does not promote Drugs, Violence, Swear Words, the Hustling of Body Damaging Goods or Body Parts, however we do promote SELF EXPRESSION. Married to Hip Hop means that Hip Hop is our counterpart, our spouse, our other half, our John Blaze. Always. Whether you be Married to Music, Married to Sports, Married to Self Expression, Married to Painting, Married to Meditation, Married to Reading... It really does not matter. Married to the Media Arts (old wordpress site) or Married to God. Js' as long as you know, that your my Johnny Blaze.

AALIYAH, MISSY & TIMBO | JOHN BLAZE

Everything,everything always and forever...

I swear they never get the point. Society today has so many loop holes. Calling people crazy, when they are really not. Perscribing medicine when they are not even ill. Sad how some parents would even deny or restrict their children from becoming who they want to be by pressure, abuse, neglect and pure fraud of intentions and feelings. I want you to relapse then re-lap then re-write, then re-run the whole nine yards. Just know that I love you, just know that I care. Some people are made weak and some are mad strong, some people grow to be weak and some grow to be strong, which one are you? I know you know how much I care for you baby, now be strong! Forever & Always!

YOUNG JEEZY | 3 A.M.

Times are hard and beautiful, at the same times...

If your wondering what happened to the website. I like the bright white right now. The 50 dollar bill is an interpretation of how I feel about life right now. I'm out for that other 50 right now. The one you see is the one in my left hand. Women are unbelievable. It's true we let men get the best of us, mold ourselves brainlessly into what we thing we should be, we feel we should be, a product of our environment. Sometimes we just become our environment. Don't let it get to you, or get you. You need to be real with yourself and second think each and every object surrounding you. Where did it come from, what kind of money bought it and what is it doing for you. Your body is your temple, your heart the underground church, and your mind is your little piece and connection to heaven and God. If you have a cloudy mind the rain will dilute your vision. Substances, another big killer - I am not one to talk I blaze almost an hq a day. Don't let them control you. I'm coming for you, I need you to think about the future and what you can improve. How can you help yourself while helping others around you at the same time, that's real.

MR CAPONE-E | LET ME LOVE YOU GIRL

Working so hard to feed our kids and...

Then they end up growing into pain? What a Game. They end up growing like me? Like you, lost, or a little confused? Then they grow up hugging the block? and their glocks? Just a fairytale? So many want to live on the dangerous side until you realize the stink in the back alley you walk down to go to school everyday with your sister isn't cherry slushie dawg. Doesn't matter, all that matters is you're alive, well and breathing, changing and evolving. Never forgetting the things that matter and always forgiving the infinite. Do you - thats all you can do, don't stop either. Don't try to stop anyone else either. Unless they way off. Still you's outta' line. I admire the confidence to find happiness even in poverty or through depressions. Sometimes you gotta really use your heart to figure these things out, the mind can be tainted, trained, or foul. Theres no disgrace in putting food on your table once you figure the puzzle out, the picture will be all clearer. Sad - some can't play.

VENDETTA, SLING DADZ, MECCA & GOVANA | JANE STRIP

Keep moving, never stop, reach higher...

Things erupt, sometimes uncontrollable, mostly controllable. Life is yours to handle, weakness is evident. Don't let the hood get to you. People can be easily mislead, when it comes down to it, people can take a wrong idea from anything. From a joke, from an article, from a conversation, from an action, from a material object, anything - most importantly and commonly, people can take the wrong ideas from other people's examples, especially their behavior. Love in the hood is hard and when times are tough, who knows if it's really even love. For me love used to be him, until one day I didn't know who he was. So I searched deep inside myself and happened to remember that true love is the freedom of self expression. I don't need anymore love, other that the love that comes naturally, the love that comes from God. No force baby, be real. Do you wanna stay or go? You only have this life.

DUPES & YOUNG MECCA | IMPOSSIBLE
DUPES & YOUNG MECCA | IMPOSSIBLE VIDEO

What's it gonna be, cause I can't pretend...

Let's stop messing around and be real now. What do you want out of life, and if it were to all really hang on your neck and be read to you would you want to hear it? Improving your life is all you need to focus on. Some people think their lives are 100% a-ok but guess what, there is always room for improvement. Contemplation, creativity, self expression, and a little bit of truth. Spread light where theres darkness like peanut butter and jelly, feed their bellies. Love them like your own, love them like you want them to succeed, love yourself the same, those are the true rules of the game. I can't believe some come how they come. Come Harder.

CAPONE N NOREAGA | LIVE ON, LIVE STRONG

Don't let it happen again, just love it all up...

So many reasons to call it off. So many reasons to say goodbye. Should have met up with you, called your phone like I used to. So what I guess I get over things pretty well, or not. I don't want to sacrifice being something less just to feel security from you. On another note, I don't want to run away from my problems by running to you. I need you I really do. I love it when your around. I could write a billion songs about you, a million with a little about you and a little not, and a trillion about the way you make me feel. I could tell the world forever, how your love is endless. Amazing, how you heal so fast, teach so swiftly, guide so solemnly, encourage so silently. I swear you makings, are that of the finest cloth. I could rehearse for hours but there are no breaks with you, this is full on kiss for kiss, miss for miss. How much do you love it.

2 PAC & JON B | R U STILL DOWN 4 ME

Sometimes we need moments just for us...

Moments are moments. The time we spend with our selves what do we do with it. I wonder if I was busier would I have the time to express myself? I wonder when time drifts if the wind will ever pick it up again, swift and it does, it always does. I don't go to clubs, I don't buy freakum dresses continuously, only once and a while which is a waste because I barely wear them out. I'ts so interesting, the different thoughts people have. Money, let me just mention money too. So often money is the minds motive, considering money is basically food to any person these days. Sometimes we need moments for us. Moments that can't be taken away, observed, controlled, directed, turned around or squashed by anyone or anything. Moments are forever and sometimes I know it hurts but it just takes a little faith to understand and remember how it was another time, and how theres always another way. With true faith, anything is possible. Hate stops things. Love is stronger. I always like to mention that alone is always better, more solitude - more serenity. More loving, of the things that a man can't provide, that another woman can't provide, the things that are not so much material, but imperial. The Planet is pure Imperial. One Love, One Universe. I am not rambling, it's just the music. As I ride through these streets, walk along them, just know it's even harder when you are your crew, and you only have yourself to hold yourself. I know you know better, and you have so many around you. You have to do what you do the best.

MOBB DEEP (ALCHEMIST) | THUG MUZIK
MOBB DEEP (ALCHEMIST) | THUG MUZIK

When is it enough...

When life is lost it's hard to deal with. I lost a few people in my family last year, but it was natural so it's not as hard. When some one is taken away from us untimely, it's always tuff. You gotta know, respect and love the people in your life around you right now. You never know when the attention your giving is not enough for some one, or too much. Too much of the wrong environment can turn a person into an animal, and far from an angel. You have to remember that life is the most valuable possession a person can have, you take away that and the person has nothing. Dead or alive. Life is all you got, so make it worth something. Pursue all your thoughts, desires, dreams, goals, aspirations, ideas, and choices. Never stop learning, and always know that some times enough is enough, however for somethings - It's never enough.

YOUNG MECCA | NEVER ENOUGH

PROMISE TO LOVE HONOR & CHERISH YOU

A Choice to make, a dream to live, a story to right. What a life to loose, thinking on it. Life is the most valuable possession a person can have. I have to value my life, taking ourselves for granted, always goes un-noticed for some. Searching for that. Searching for that. Don't stop searching for that homie. Always know, when situations occur, God intervenes, but he won't help you if you don't listen, (to your heart.) The mind too yes, but the mind can be over taken, and so can the heart, so beware of your intentions.


BOSSMAN - NO STRUGGLE NO SUCCESS